Your 5th Birthday  / Aunty Kerrie (Aunty)

Tonight we had a cake with rainbow smarties and sang happy birthday. Even though I know you were with us in spirit I so wanted to just hug you again.

Thank you baby boy for the rainbow you sent us on the anniversary of your birth. Should I be surprised? No....your presence is so strong.

I wish you were here to eat your cake to open your presents to get roused on for being naughty and to smile your oh so beautiful smile.

Today has been so sad....for what should have been.............

Always xxxxx

 

 

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We are always thinking of you  / Russell And Sandra Green (friends of family )

Hi Josh and Mel

There is nothing we can say to ease your pain.  We just wanted to let you know that we are always thinking of and praying for you and your family.  Through Cooper's passing we have learnt to appreciate every day that we are blessed with our children!  lots of love and prayers Russell and Sandra Green

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My heartfelt sympathy  / Cindy Goodgion (passerby)

I came upon your site tonight and wanted to tell youCooper's parentshow moved I was by the lovestrengthfaith that comes through so clearly.I cannot begin to know your sorrow and griefbut I can tell you that as much as you talk of how lucky you were to have Cooper for those 22 monthsI know that Coop was so blessed to have you as parents and to have your whole family to love and nurture him during his shortbut sweet life. 

I looked at all the photographs of your beautiful boy and his loving family and friends and thought how fortunateif this sweet child was to only have 22 months on this earththat he spent them with THIS family.One that gave him unconditional love.I know as sure as I'm sitting here nowCooper left this world with the love of his family in his hearthaving never doubted just how much he was loved.

I wish there was something profound I could say to you so as to have it all make sense and have purpose.There ARE no words that can do thatnone whatsoeverand though time never truly healsit does give us the boon of distance from overwhelming grief.Time to learn how to cope and to learn to live your lives once again.I know that as your family growsyou're always going to feel the empty place in your life that was your sonbut Cooper will always fill his place in your heart.He loves his MommyDaand Liv and he'll help his new brothers to feel the same sense of unconditional love that you all gave to him.

God grant you continued healing and may you always be blessed with rainbows.

 

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3 August 2009  / Aunty Kerrie

On your angel day.

Another year has passed us by. 3 years now since we heard your laughter held you and told you we loved you. It has been so incredibly hard. We all miss you so much.

I found this verse by Hans Christian Andersen and I believe this is how it was.

Then the child opened its eyes
and looked up into the angel's beautiful face
which beamed with happiness
and at the same moment they were in heaven
where joy and bliss reigned.
The child received wings like the other angel
and they flew about together hand in hand.

Love you to the moon and back Coopy.

Always

Aunty Kerriexxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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3rd August  / Mummy

Not a minute goes by that we don't miss you

Not an hour goes by that we don't love you

Not a day goes by that we don't shed tears for you

We love you so much. It's so unfair that you are not with us. What I wouldn't give to have you back with me.  I carry you always Cooper. You are such a big part of me. I love you endlessly and can't wait to see you again.

xMummy

Over The Rainbow

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Thinking of you Cooper  / Caitlin Murphy (Cousin)
I miss you. I miss you so much. So many nights coop i go to sleep and feel your presence. i am just so happy that i feel something..your always living on in our hearts forever and ever. 3 years ago was the last time i saw you. gosh that breaks my heart. i remember all the family sitting around talking to you whilst you were on your daddas lap and we were asking you to pick up the piece of cutlery for us to determine if you were going to be left handed or right handed... we all giggled as your dad was making jokes about left handed people and you kept picking it up with your left hand.. and we were all laughing... hehe i know you know what im talking about.. i remember the last moments i had with you as clear as day. Im looking after Noah and Jacob on Thursday's. they are so much fun to play with and before we all know it they will be up and running around. i love your brothers and sister dearly! i promise i will protect them and look after them. i wish you were here so much Cooper.Your brothers as you know are just the best the most cheekiest adorable little boys.. i know your living in them. and i always get the feeling when im around them that they see you or they talk to you..! I love you I wish i wish i wish upon a star that your happy and your with your precious precious angel friends and your with God in heaven. i know and believe you are. Keep watching over Mummy and Daddy precious boy. they both miss you so much i love you always and forever i miss you everyday Caity xxxx Close

love you  / Mummy

3 years ago baby boy...... what were we doing? Oblivious to the nightmare about to engulf us I'm sure.  Wish I could be there again.  Blinded to the nightmare that was about to take over our family.

I think of you now and smile.  I never thought that would be possible.  To think of my beautiful lost son and smile.  But I do.  I still hurt. I hurt like crazy. I still love you and I still miss you.  But when I speak your name when I think about you I smile! I love you so much so wish you were here but you are with us you are our family. 

This crazy life without you is impossible to imagine. A life I never dreamed of. A road I didn't want to take.... but here I am.  I have no choice.... I can't go under it..... I can't go over it.... I have to go through it.

I can't believe you would be turning 5 this year. Ohhhh the dreams.... ohhhhh the possibilities.... ohhhh what a different life.  But you aren't turning 5 this year... you are my eternal angel... my eternal 22 month old perfect baby boy.

I keep going I long to see you again. I love you endlessly.

xxxxxMummy

 

 

 

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Hi Coops  / Kylie Hewitt (God Mother )

Hi Coops,

I hope you are happy and having fun with your little angel friends.  We feel and see more and more of you in your two baby brothers each day.

Its so lovely as it reminds us of all the little things you did as a baby - like the constant movement of your hands and feet around and around in circles which use to make me laugh and when I see your brothers doing it - it brings a smile to my face and you to my mind.

I don't care what anyone thinks or says, but when I look at Noah and Jacob - I know you have come back to us "with a buddy" - the thing is Im not sure which is you - there is so much of you at both of them.

I love seeing and holding them because it reminds me so much of you.

Love, kisses and big hugs.

Aunty Kyles

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Mother's Day Rainbow  / Katrina Smith

Hi Cooper,  I was driving home from work this morning, just before 8am, passed a house selling lovely mother's day flowers, and then saw the most beautiful and vibrant rainbow.  I immediately thought of you and then noticed it was ending in the direction of your mum's home. With a tear in my eye, it made me smile as it touched my heart, I had to take a photo of it, (but my phone camera did not do it justice!!)  I felt you were sending her your love and wishes for a happy mother's day.

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Thinking of you Cooper  / Anne Barnett (friend)
Have been thinking about you Cooper.  Hope you enjoyed the Christening and are enjoying all the hard work your mum and dad have been doing in the garden. xx Close

Missing you  / Jess Murphy (Cousin)

Hi Coopy

I miss you. Me and Caitlin watched you on the video camera the other week. It was happy to see you. I wish i could hold you in my arms again and give you a big hug. To see you on camera is like going back in time. Every little sign still reminds me of you, rainbows, the wizard of oz, toy cars... i wish i could watch you grow. I really miss you coopy and ill love you forever.

Love forever and ever

xxx Jess

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Happy 4th Birthday  / Lena De Biasio (Mom's Friend )

Dear Melissa and Family,

With the fundraiser this past weekend I neglected to wish Cooper a Happy 4th Birthday. Please know that you are all in my thoughts. Cooper was part of Luca's Auction, in fact we saw two rainbows that day! Cooper is always remembered.

Love, Lena

 

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Dancing with Angels  / Aunty Kyles (God Mother )

Hi Coops,

Thank you for visiting Luke the other night.  The first thing he told me when he got up in the morning was :

"Mum you know my friend in Heaven Cooper, we were dancing with the angels him and me last night we were".

Don't stop visiting him Coops, I love to know you are still playing with Luke.

Love Aunty Kyles 

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Happy 4th Birthday  / Mummy

Hello my baby boy. Happy Birthday.  How I wish I could wind back the clock to this time 4 years ago. To have you in my arms again. My heart aches that I can't watch you open all your presents and that we can't spend all day playing with you. You would be a big boy now, rough and tumble and racing through the house. I often try and imagine what you would be like today but my mind keeps going back to the perfect little baby boy that you were.  You will always be my baby boy, my perfect eternal angel.  You made me so happy 4 years ago, you completed our perfect little family.  I wish so much that we could have you back, it would all be ok if you could just come home to me.  As Aunty Kylie said, we all keep making the same wish to have you back.  Olivia secretly told me the other day that she makes wishes and she wishes for you to come home.  Don't we all........

Well darling boy. I know you will be with us tonight when we sing Happy Birthday to you.  Please know how much I love you and that you are and will always be such a huge part of our family. I love you more than words can describe.

Happy Day beautiful boy.  I miss you.

Mummy

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Happy 4th Birthday  / Aunty Kyles (God Mother )

Dear Coops,

All I want to do today is to come and see you with a
big present and card all wrapped up in a big blue bow. 

I can see you now - throwing the card to one side
and tearing the paper apart to eagerly see what is inside. 

I remember your 1st birthday like it was yesterday. 
You in your blue party hat on mum's lap while we all
sung you Happy Birthday on the deck at Aunty Kerrie's
house.

We will sing to you today with our own cake and candles
making a wish that will never come true but we still make
it year after year.

I hope you are dancing and singing and playing all those party games we know you love with all your beautiful angel friends
that are also missed dearly. 

Happy 4th Birthday Coops, sending you a massive kiss for
those big chubby cheeks.

All my love

Aunty Kyles

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Thanks for the sign Coops!  / Aunty Kyles Hewitt (God Mother )

Hi Coops,

Thank you so much for sending me a sign this morning.  For anyone who is reading this - this morning (like every morning) I open my eyes and immediately turn on my radio next to my bed. 

The first thing I heard was the weather report for the day - then the next song was - CATCH MY DISEASE!  One of Cooper's favourite songs. 

Coops I knew your mum wouldnt believe me so I jumped on the phone so she could hear.  I was thrilled to know you know we are all thinking of you every day.  Especially today.

It feels like yesterday that I saw your cheeky face looking up at me then the next moment Im so unbelievabley sad it feels like forever. 

Last night I sat up until midnight watching home movies of you and Luke together - remember when you both had those big cookies I bought for you both and you just wanted each others as well as your own.   I knew it would make me so sad but I just had to see you, I had to hear you. 

Luke misses you alot.  He knows you send us those beautiful rainbows and you are always close by.

Cooper you know how much you mean to us and how much we miss you.  Keep those songs playing and those rainbows shining for us all.

Love Aunty Kyles

p.s Your two little brothers are just as cute as you.  I just know there is a little of you in both of them.  Keep watch over them Coops, its a big job being a big brother - especially to twins.  Livi is going to need lots of help.  They are so beautiful.  You've done well for Daddy, Mummy & Liv.

 

 

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3rd August 2008  / Mummy

Well the dreaded day is upon us.  The tragic and horrific day 2 years ago that you were taken away.  It's such a tumultuous day in one way and in another it's just another sad and lonely day without our boy.  Cooper I have found the 2nd year strangely harder than the first.  The first year after your death I walked around in a haze.  I was numb with shock.  This 2nd year the numbess has worn off and the missing you absolutely shatters me.  I still can't believe it, I want you back so much.  Friends and family have been an amazing support to us over the last few years but it's so hard to see them get on with their lives and we are still stuck in this hole of despair.  I think of you every minute of every day. Our little family has just grown by 2 but will never be complete.  We will always be one child short.  I have 4 children but can only hold 3.  What I wouldn't give to have you here.

I don't need anniversaries or special occasions to think of you Cooper.  You know that you are part of us.  You live on in our hearts and memories.  You live on in your big Sister Olivia who talks about you and wishes you were here with us.  You live on in your twin brothers.

I love you baby boy, send me a rainbow soon.

Forever your Mummy

xoxoxoxo

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Forever in our hearts xo  / Suzy Davis (Mummys friend )
Cooper will live on in the hearts and memories of all of us who had the pleasure of knowing him and his amazing family. Today will always be such a sad day, a day when the most unique, happy, loving, prescious little boy was taken from all who knew and loved him. When I think of Cooper I see his smiling face and remember the day he ran to me and said "Sushi " for the first time. I know that he is in heaven watching over his Mum, Dad, Sister and brothers with so much love. There are no words that will provide comfort to you Mel & Josh. Know that you are  loved by so many people who like me we will remember Cooper forever and treasure our memories of special times we shared his happiness and love xxxxx Close

Happy Easter  / Lisa Mummy To Angel Tyler

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Holidays / Mummy

Coops, I sit here on holidays by the pool imagining you were here.  Would you be running around wild like your sister, up and down the slides, in and out of the pool, surfing at the beach.  Or would you still be my little Mummy's Boy, have a bit of a play then come for a cuddle with your Mummy.  I think you would have outgrown the Mummy's boy stage by now and I think you would be running around crazy like your big sister Olivia.

Livvy is having the best holidays and I wish so much you could be here to enjoy it with her.  It's all so empty and pointless without you baby boy.  I love you so so so much.  You are always in my thoughts, not a minute goes by that I don't think of you and your cheeky little smile.

Yes, you are with us but not the way I want you to be.   I know I have to accept that this is as good as it will ever get.

Love your Mummy

xxooxoxoxoxo

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